I hate it when I get my hopes up, and I end up disappointed. I hate how I’m so optimistic and excited about simple things. I set such high expectations that are never met and I hurt myself in the end. It’s ironic because when I’m a negative person/don’t expect much, things turns out well. It makes me wonder if I should just be pessimistic from now on. That way, I won’t have to constantly disappoint myself. I don’t want to think this way and I know it’s a horrible way to look at it. But sometimes, I feel like it’s the only way to “feel happier than I thought I’d be”, or “make things better than I thought it’d be.” I would be able to say that things were better than I expected. I don’t know if this makes much sense. I guess I just want to do whatever it takes to stop setting such high expectations and feeling like shit when it doesn’t turn out the way I thought it would.